Sunday, March 11, 2007...It's been a while..

If you know me, you will be aware of my ability to recall song lyrics...this however was a song I was listening to today which always makes me understand how I'm feeling when I am feeling low...and also that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel... You have to admit to your short comings before you can go any further in life...I'm at a cross roads and sometimes can't see the road for the fog....I guess I have to muddle through and hopefully not push back the one's I love in an attempt to 'fix' everything all on my own...like I always do...
You know this is for u...Love always...Strawberries... XxXxXx

And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been a while Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go awayJust one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhileSince I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhileSince I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhileSince I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhileBut I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhileSince I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhileSince I said I'm sorry.